Ok so I am at it again…
some more NITTY GRITTY!!
This whole post is making me uneasy. I wrote it and now I am adding this….
Learning to share my own lessons and struggles, hurts, and anger ….my humanness …my vulnerability.
Opening up my thinking and feeling and heart here.
So with that said : don’t judge me, just hear me…pray for me. I will do the same for you!
Finding out that some one gave you a dirty look when they thought they were scot-free to do so, is no fun.
I have no ill will toward this person and why would they scowl at me??
I have always been kind, smiled, waved. No heart bother toward them…
THAT KIND OF STUFF JUST HURTS AND ISNT NICE…don’t do that to people. ( God help me if I do that!!)
( I watched a video where a Pastor told his congregation that the new F – word at their church was FORGIVENESS. Then he told them to tell others F- you. I don’t think they will ever think of the world’s F-word the same ever again… and so in keeping with what this pastor said and what this person did to me I suppose I will just have to FORGIVE them. —hahahah you thought I was gonna say F-them …sounds a little strange to say that to me.) :0/
But if you do not forgive, neither will your Father in heaven forgive your trespasses.
You ever met a person with a personality that just rubs you wrong??
I know the Lord wants to grow me, in patience and tolerance. BUT SERIOUSLY!!!
I know this one is all me! —My attitude toward them.
I do my best to be kind.
but I also steer clear.
( you ever do that?? –avoid people you know are going to drive you nuts?)
(this is sounding a bit like the situation above and now I am the offender..grrrrrrrrrrrr! Isn’t God good like that!!! perfect lesson from a perfect teacher. )
I know I haven’t given this person a dirty look though…yet :0/ and I don’t want to.
I want to be able to see them, hear them, be near them and not cringe in annoyance.
This is not a new lesson…
It is but a new person that God is bringing around me that has similar traits to others I have since been able to get a grip and learn to love. GOD HELP ME!!!
Consider it all joy,
my brethren, when you
encounter various trials,
knowing that the testing of