OH you know its not good

when you find yourself in the mirror

staring hard into your own eyes

pressing in with flaming anger

that you are not sharing yourself anymore

“LISTEN TO ME

DO NOT OPEN LIKE THAT ANYMORE

EVERYTIME YOU TRY

YOU GET STEPPED ON

DON’T TELL YOUR THOUGHTS

DON’T SHARE YOUR LIFE

JUST LET IT PASS

AND ALL WILL BE FINE!”

Its not easy when you are in the middle

of a conversation and all the sudden it goes sideways

takes a hard left turn into misperception

I don’t understand how it happens

but it happens….

and you grapple and scrape

and the sink hole that just opened under your feet

begging in your eyes for understanding

and you slip into the darkness

And the anger

“YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND ME!”

and worse I believe that they don’t really want to

and that I am wasting my time

I have been there more times than I can stand

and worse I been walking through Fear doors

and finding greater footing for Trusting the King

and I heard my words tear my heart into pieces

…..swallow hard your heart and walk away….

God help me ….