He said “DO YOU TRUST ME?”

and with that He walked me on a journey

eye opening

holding His hand

realizing that I have shaken in fear

for far too long

I was visiting my grandma

of course sweet grandma

keeps a copy out where all can see it

I had written this book back in 2009

I picked it up and read through

seeing my old journal entry’s

and hearing my fearful cries

and knowing that I still struggle here

the most interesting moment for me

is realizing that I didn’t get down on myself

I didn’t see myself a loser

a less than

I didn’t see that I don’t measure up

What I saw was ….

This has always been my struggle

He created me to overcome

we all struggle with something

and this Fear to be who I am is mine

I have pages and pages of blog posts

I have pages and pages in journals

I have many many more written in my heart

on the topic  called F -E-A-R

This blog is my story of overcoming

the daily struggle to be me in a world

that screams that I should just hide

DO YOU TRUST ME?

Yes Lord I do!

I’m singing a special at Church for Easter

I have sang this song so many times

but at our last practice

IT HIT ME….. the words

I trust in you

I trust in you

Healer – Kari Jobe

God is walking me through

and the words – I trust you

are everywhere

Then I’m driving home after practice

and I am telling my daughter about

the moment when I realize what I am singing

and just before I say the words

a song on the radio ….I hear

I will trust in you

Just as I’m about to say

I TRUST IN YOU!!!

then it continues …..

Whatever will come my way
Through fire or pouring rain
We won’t be shaken
No we won’t be shaken
Whatever tomorrow brings
Together we’ll rise and sing
That we won’t be shaken

We wont be shaken – Building 429

He is telling me what to say to myself

Psalm 56:3   

When I am afraid, I put my trust in you.

I may struggle with this thing for all my days

but if It pulls me each time closer and closer to the Lord

then I will wear the words

AFRIAD BUT I WILL OVERCOME IN CHRIST

just like He wears my name like a banner on His arm

HE IS MY DEFENDER!

~Starla

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…..BTW I have started a BLOG LINK UP called Listen with your heart.

The first one was posted Friday and is called  Heart Lyrics 

If you would like to join us. It will be up Friday through the next Friday …so there is still time for this week :0)