Some changes have come to my life.

So much shifting inside and out that I haven’t been here to write in almost a month.

1. Our youth leader was called to pastor a church. He was coming to youth group still for a month after he left to see through the transition….and well tackling a youth group is no easy task and I do not in anyway have this figured out but God has given us some good ideas, and some great people so I am pretty sure we are gonna make it. It’s interesting when you are not the one in the line of fire for making decisions  and being accountable how some things just don’t cross your mind.

In concept I think Quality not quantity.

But when teens move away and others just seem uninterested and numbers begin to dwindle + He brought half the youth group from a small town out in the boons 45 minutes away….well….

…the fear creeps in.

I wonder if they hate me? -I know they don’t…

I wonder if I can do this? – I know God can…

I wonder if I look stupid and silly and ridiculous? -stop looking at me…right??

Teens are a hard sell, you know!

They see through the bull. They’re presence alone pushes you to rawness…and for an introvert that is almost scarier than hell itself.

More on that a time goes….

2. My husband joined the youth team…so authority issues and balance have come into play, while also great blessing and closeness and clarity.

One moment of clarity is just how comforting my marriage is to me. It is very strange when I see the truth about something and realize that I have been looking at something completely off. Comparison kills communion in a relationship. Looking at what others relationships are like…creates a fairy tale mentality.

SO to the story… I asked my husband if he thought that we didn’t talk enough. He of course said No. Then he said

“What is really nice about our relationship is that we don’t need to talk all the time. We say what we need to say and we don’t unnecessarily chatter!”

I am truly blessed with my husband …walking together  into this year with God has brought many stitches of closeness that I am so thankful for…

These song lyrics came to mind when I was pondering what he said to me….

The smile on your face

lets me know that you need me

There’s a truth in your eyes

sayin’ you’ll never leave me

The touch of your hand

says you’ll catch me if ever I fall

You say it best when you say nothing at all

 

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