Heard on the Christian radio the other day…
Anytime you have sin in your life it is directly related to your identity your worth. You will sin around these issues trying to prove your worth until you learn to identify yourself as Christ does.
They always say a double witness is proof of truth
The other day a fellow worship team member went to our leader and asked her to come with him to give me a word from the Lord. He was praying for the group and I began to be heavy on his heart. (thank God for people who pray) It was simple but I am finding it more and more to be digging deeper and deeper into me.
The word was(paraphrasing – how I heard it and how God interpreted it to me as I reflected) : God created you to sing for Him. He knew you before you were born. God has a slight rebuke for you. It isn’t about your worth when you sing. God is who made you of worth. Your worth is based in Christ lives in you. Singing is about obedience. Stop entangling your worth with obedience. Let go and just sing!
This is an area of issue for me.
For as long as I can remember I wanted to sing. I had a desire from the bottom of my soul that propelled me to sing even through times I heard that I couldn’t sing, that I wasn’t any good, that I should just stop that. I refused and I just kept singing. It was as if the fire to sing was roaring through my blood.
I am also a bit of a perfectionist. If I mess up. I am so upset with myself. I silently live in a world in my head that berates and rails inside against any sign of imperfection and yes…I do tie it to my worth, silently weeping inside that I am not worthy to even stand up there and open my mouth.
I heard this radio bit a few days before I got the word…..
To entangle this worth and obedience thing….will be a process as usual. But I will grow and walk through it and be obedient, separating who I am in Him from what I do.
I am HIS ….I sing because I am His and I love Him!
Last night I read this verse in Romans 10:9-10 (msg):
That’s it. You’re not “doing” anything; you’re simply calling out to God, trusting him to do it for you. That’s salvation. With your whole being you embrace God setting things right, and then you say it, right out loud: “God has set everything right between him and me!”
He’s GOT this!