Thursday (Book I’m Reading) THOUGHTS

Book I’m Reading:  One Thousand Gifts

(All words in BOLD DARK are from the book)

Loser, Mess, Failure

Ann marks the heart cries of a simple women. Aren’t we all just that — simple? Its all simple…

We are simply God’s ….

And yet we create complexity focusing on where we have come up short. Instead of placing ourselves in our Gods hands and His grace filling…because without it we really are empty. We find ourselves bouncing back and forth between Empty<——>Full

Empty – focusing on the less than

Full – focusing of God’s grace

To live fully alive…or in empty nothingness?

It’s the in between that drives us mad. It’s the life in between, the days of walking lifeless, the years calloused and simply going through the hollow motions, the self-protecting by self-distracting, the body never waking, that’s’ lost all capacity to fully feel –this is the life in between that makes us the wild walking dead.

Emptiness looks a lot like discontentment and distant viewing. Where I am not thankful for nor do I see the “little” blessings of everyday. Where I think that it is “somewhere else” that those things reside. Where I believe in my heart that the good stuff has been withheld from me.

It’s those days like yesterday where I reflect at the end of the day and I have a dense feeling of numbness. The day was less than best.  But is that true – is it really my perception colored with my fears and anxieties that creates my so-called life.

Am I blind to the beauty?

Isn’t it here? The wonder? Why do I spend so much of my living hours struggling to see it? De we truly stumble so blind that we must be affronted with blinding magnificence for our blurry soul-sight to recognize Grandeur? The very same surging magnificence that cascades over our every day here. Who has time or eyes to notice? All my eyes can seem to fixate on are the splatters of disappointment across here and me.

There is so much more in this second chapter…all of it equally compelling and tearing at the inside of your heart to open to God’s hand in your life. I could keep going but for sake of time and not wanting to be to long and lose your interest. I will leave off here.

STARLA